As I grow older, I am able to look back at my growing years with more clarity. I realise that the happiest moments in my life are rooted to Swami. I grew up under His protective gaze. While my intentions have always been good, the mistakes I have made are many yet Swami has never lost his patience with me or given up on me. His loving gaze has always protected me.
This is one of my favourite pictures of Swami during his early years. I love gazing at the old black and white pictures. His eyes sparkle and his smile shines with moon-like radiance. His joyous state is full of amazing energy. The wisdom is there for all to see.
In a book written by Nimmi Kanwar titled, 'A Guru remembers her Sadguru', she shares interesting experiences with Swami. One such experience is when she was serving as Seva Dal during Swami's visit to Delhi and Shimla and she mentions how Seva Dals used to feel irritated when the famous columnist Khushwant Singh used to make attempts to see Swami in person. The Seva Dals felt bad because he used to write awful articles about Swami after meeting him yet Nimmi Kanwar mentions that each time, Swami would tell them to send Khushwant Singh in to meet him. Swami cared for everyone as His own - those who abused Him and those who loved Him. More importantly, Swami was always unaffected by how others 'judged' Him and Swami never judged others.
I have no words but to thank Swami with all my heart for everything He has blessed me with in my life. My struggles taught me to take refuge in His name. My pain taught me to trust in His loving and protective care.
Whenever I have felt alone and abandoned in the tough phases of my life, it is Swami's love that helped me to move forward, taking one baby step at a time.
The most amazing thing about Swami is this - He loves you completely, without holding back or expecting anything from you. When He is with you, everything falls into place, like in a divine play.